Saturday

Hey

I fudged up...

yup...yup...yup...

today I feel bad...maybe cause I haven't sleep or eaten in two days...or I'm just heart broken...

"...Amazing! God is with you!...There is no other God—none..."-Isaiah 45:14

I hate the days when I know God is with me but I just can't feel it...cause I'm focused too much on me and the problems I face...I'm too afraid of the future and what it might bring...I start thinking if I will ever find a better Job and finally finish school...I freak out when I feel stuck in a spot i can't pass...its funny cause I went to school for only two years and four years later I'm still working only to payoff the stupid student loans...I don't have a car so i have to ask for rides...on top of that I have a lot of friends some that are very close but for some reason I can't trust anyone to tell them how I really feel...

Today I just wish I can feel peace in my mind...and in my heart...

God, I thank you for life and all the pain you allow us to feel...It suck it really does...but You are and cause you are I am and I am cause you are my God...I pray God that you may give peace to the people around me...my family my friends the people I work with and even the people I don't like...God keep me in your mind and when my life is done allow me to rest in you at peace...

Today I feel sick of life...but I'm alive...so I must enjoy it and live...

till next time robot...


I hope Alma is not reading this...